Wednesday, August 03, 2005


     I reported last night that Kari felt wetness on her hand.  Upon closer questioning this morning Linda reports that, in fact, she only saw the wetness and didn't feel it.  It's hard to know what to report, and, as I said in an earlier update, if our foundation hope is in God, then we can better keep possible progress, even possible setbacks, in perspective.  Now this morning Kari was having trouble getting comfortable in bed.  She said, in fact, that her lower back hurt.  Well, how are we to interpret this?  Did she really feel her lower back, something she hasn't been able to do so far.  Or is she reporting a general feeling of discomfort and imagining that it is centered in her lower back?  Let's hope that her lower back "hurts," even though that's uncomfortable, but it's hard to tell right now.
     What's easier to see is the medical stuff.  Her fever appears to be gone, and though she has asked to be suctioned several times this morning, her lungs are clearer than they have been in days.  Then again, this condition is one that may go back and forth for weeks.  Also easier to "see" is her mood.  This morning she was having trouble breathing, due mainly to what might be a mild anxiety attack.  She's growing impatient--not entirely a bad thing--wants to move on and wishes she could get up and run around the room.  We all wish that too, Kari.  Linda asked, Do you feel like screaming sometimes?  Sure enough, she did.  In those early days right after surgery she would say, "I want to get up...Now!"  One of her nurses replied, "Oh, you'll be getting up plenty in a few weeks."  Rehab will be so difficult she's going to wish she could lay down more, but this waiting time in between is getting harder for her.   Let's hope she starts soon...Now!  But in the mean time, please pray that she can relax and that the growing anxieties about the present and future might be soothed.  Easy enough to say, for sure, but how else can we pray?  I kept saying in those first days after the accident, "Relax.  Don't fight the tube.  Don't fight the ventilator--just go with it."  Again, really easy to say.  Her fighting spirit is great, but it has some offshoots--like impatience, like anxiety--that are hard to deal with.
--Richard R. Guzman    


Anonymous said...

Is anyone out there???????????? In recent days, very few people are leaving their comments, that we all are enlightened by. So I felt the need to write to everyone who read these, wonderful, informative articals, that Richard, Aaron, Shona, Blake, and Rob are gratuitously writting, to keep us, the thousands, informed. WOW, Isn't that amazing, just think, thousands of people praying for one complete, Godly healing. For me when I read the daily articals and everyones comments, I get a huge since of "family". It up lifts me and I do, think those extra thoughts and pray those extra prayers, through out my day. My prayers do go out to Kari and everyone around her, and then the ripple effect kicks in and the prayers flood out. It's amazing how it's about Kari and her healing, but it goes way deeper, on so many levels, that truely only our God among us, can truely know. Through all this communication with one another, the Lord is in turn communication with each and everyone of us. It's an awesome concept. So for all those who love to tippy-type away, please fell free to not only E-mail Kari exclusively, But also use this forum. The Lord works in mysterious ways and you never know who's life you are touching, just by saying what's on your mind. With Love for the "Family" I have yet to meet. Kim R-G (Riverside,Ca)

pam engel said...

I'm Blake's mom and I just wanted to say thanks to all of you "techies" for giving the rest of us the opportunity to get daily updates through this blog. This networking is a powerful way to keep us informed and give us hope which, in turn, we share with Aaron and Kari. As I read each day's entries I find myself holding my breath in anticipation, praying that the news will be positive but appreciating the honesty of those who report the not so good stuff too. Anyway, please don't give up on us!!

Kathy Timmers said...

Amen and again, sister Kim R-G!
I have used the very same word many times lately-
the prayer "ripples"- just flowing all over the world, to places and people we don't even know yet. Brings that POG song "Circle of Friends" to mind:
"Among the nations, tribes and tongues
We have sisters and brothers
And when we meet in heaven
We will recognize each other
With joy so deep and love so sweet
Oh we'll celebrate these friends
And a life that never ends"

We are so blessed to have each other as family in Christ, to be there for each other in good times and bad, joys and sorrows, and lift each other up in prayer.

Praying without ceasing for Kari and Aaron and everyone else being touched by their lives-
In faith and love,